Within 01.
staying with what doesn’t resolve
You don’t need to arrive anywhere while you’re here.
You might want a journal nearby. A quiet corner helps, but it isn’t required. Just enough space to notice yourself while you’re here.
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Introducing Within
Within is a quiet, guided journaling space — a place to slow down and turn inward together.
Each edition begins with noticing, moves into gentle reflection, and opens space for your own words to unfold. It’s about staying with what is here, and seeing a little more clearly from the inside.
I’m sharing this first Within openly so you can feel its rhythm. Future editions will quietly move into the paid space — for those who want to stay a little longer.
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Before anything else, just arrive here for a moment.
Then notice where your body might be working harder than it needs to today.
Take a breath there.
Let your shoulders lower a fraction. Let your jaw soften if it wants to. No need to change anything — just notice what is already true.
There are moments in life that resist being solved. Sometimes it feels like sitting with a cup that has gone warm in your hands — nothing urgent, only the quiet fact that you are still here with it. The mind reaches for explanation out of love, out of fear, out of the hope that understanding might make the ground feel steadier.
It reaches anyway.
But sometimes clarity doesn’t come quickly. Sometimes it never arrives in the way we expect.
This space is not about forcing insight. It’s about staying long enough to hear what’s underneath the need to know.
Just staying.
Nothing else required.
Today we’re simply staying with what hasn’t resolved yet.
Not fixing it.
Not rushing it forward.
Only letting it rest beside you while you listen.
Before you write, pause for a moment.
Begin by noticing:
your breathing — shallow or deep, fast or slow
where your body feels tight or braced
where there is even a small sense of ease
You don’t have to change anything. Just let your body be part of the conversation.
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Questions to Sit With
You don’t need to answer these perfectly. Let them sit beside you and see what opens.
What question keeps circling in your mind lately?
Where do you notice yourself reaching for certainty or explanation?
What happens in your body when you don’t immediately try to solve it?
What feels unfinished right now — and what if it’s allowed to remain open for a while?
Is there something you’re trying to understand that might actually be asking to be felt instead?
What would it look like to stand beside this part of your life rather than fix it?
What becomes quieter when you stop pushing for an answer?
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You don’t need to arrive anywhere after writing.
Let what surfaced stay with you a little longer.
Maybe clarity will come later.
Maybe it won’t.
The practice isn’t finding the answer.
It’s learning you can stay present even when nothing resolves.
Nothing to conclude.
Nothing to solve.
Stay here for a breath or two before you move on.
We’ll keep practicing this kind of noticing here — slowly, together.
We’ll meet here again next week.
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If you’d like to keep practicing this kind of noticing with me, you’re welcome here.
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Before you go…
Carry one small noticing with you.
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If something surfaced while you were here, you’re welcome to leave a small reflection in the comments — a sentence, a noticing, or simply what stayed with you.
No conclusions needed. Sometimes naming something aloud lets it feel a little less alone.
So many of your words above make me smile because it is evidence of your own BeMo Practice - seeing the same, familiar words and references to "need" and broadening outlook fills my heart. I wantedto join you. So, I took your prompts through The BeMo Practice and wanted to share a little bit of what I revealed.
The question I keep circling lately is, "Will I ever..."
I notice reaching for need as a recognition of support. Asking: Where am I supported? What does support look like in my life? When is learning enough, and is it worth meeting myself here?
I loved that you brought body work into it. I'm fully on board with this as part of my embodiment journey. So I went deep with this prompt.
What happens in your body when you don't try to to immediately solve...
I feel an unwanted energy like a beehive buzzing and building in the cavity of my chest. It is so real, my arms tingle with the same felt vibration. I feel like I ate too much; like everything is too much despite not having finished my breakfast or started my day. I worry I'll fall asleep so worn and heavy tonight that I"ll wake up after only a few hours to finish an argument never had; the one firing from within with 3AM cortisol. My body wants to hide. It wants to get up. Rise. Get away. Keep going. It wants to sit down in nature where hopelessness feels less heavy like body weight in water.
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I continued with what feels unfinished and reiterated: Embodiment
When I asked myself, "What if embodiment is allowed to remain open?" I answered: I think allowing openness IS the healing journey. It isn't about closing off. Or getting to an end. It's about remaining open without ignition.
When you asked, "Is there something you're trying to understand that is asking to be felt?" I smiled because I come at things so differently. I feel and sometimes bypass understanding by only working to understand and sit with the feeling, nothing else.
When I took all my answer sthrough the FUNCK Method I said:
I feel depleted, absent, and desirous of space in a place that holds me and gives back - in snow, in nature, in sleep.
You have met so many challenges with incredible balance lately. But balance is still a conscious effort for you. That is ok. Give yourself what you need.
I have a need for balance that looks like predictability, space, holding, rest, reboot, and recovery.
I can go back to bed. I can take a salt bath. I can read. I can call my therapist. I can stay busy and locked away. I can grow quiet. I can go to a coffee shop and spend time with myself. I can ask for a hug. I can go to the office. I can book a massage. I can lie on my office floor, in the fetal position, and let everyone believe I'm here, busy, working, when what I really need is rest.
I know I've done big, brave things and made good choices. I know I've stayed in my power. I know I've met many people halfway, and now it is a day in which I get to meet myself ALL the way. Always.
Anyway, I thought I'd share some snippets. :) I hope you don't mind. Thanks for putting this out there.
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